"Musings" & Connections

Seriously, I am so tired of this shit.

I am having a DAMN hard time keeping myself from psy-smacking Blue into reality. He's got so many theories, but no foundation for them.

He keeps going on about soul partners--

Which are basically totemic spirits who stay with one soul and learn with them. Like, two kids who grow up together and stay in the same town their entire lives.

--and how he thinks that you have to have Celtic blood and you have to believe in this stuff to have a "soul partner." He, of course, believes that the Tiger who has supposedly been hanging out in his head is his "soul partner."

The fact that he has Celtic blood and a "soul partner," only enforces that idea.

The fact that my mother and I both have draks and are of Irish descent (heavy heritage) does not help my cause of getting him to freaking drop this shit.

I've gotten better at shielding...I think. I'm hoping. Harley tested my shields today, and told me I felt cold and kinda blue-ish-white.

Was using ice at the time.

I want my mom to try them out at some point soon--she's like the shielding guru. LOL

I think I forgot today that I needed to keep him out. After finding out about Maria, I was really raw today. I've never met Ashy face-to-face, but she's one of my best friends...one of the best people I've ever met. This had me down.

I didn't encourage Blue in this Celtic + Belief = "soul partners" thing.

Delusions of grandeur from novices do not a happy Mire make.

Because that is what he is. He has no training, no access to books, only his own imaginings and maybe a bit of power.

He has theories about 2012, he has theories about seeing the Lady, about his own "destiny," about....GAWDS.

Can someone please give me permission to SMACK him????????

Please???

This morning--had Ceri, Sid and Blue on MSN, so Sid could teach Ceri how to shield. Ceri's been wanting to learn and, really, she needs it. At the time, I kept getting kicked off my computer because it overheated...so I wasn't there for it, but Sid told me that he kept interrupting to ask her if she could try to break through his shields.

WTF??

First off: interrupting a "class" while someone else is learning something like shielding--which takes a bit of CONCENTRATION--is plain rude!

Second off: Sid happens to be a Shieldbreaker--as my mother, who would have BIG reason to know, called her--and asking her to break his shields is just...ugh. It's like asking a hungry Dragon if you can put your head in his mouth. Not particularly good for your health.

He supposedly has 2 layers on his shields. The first layer--which I have sensed--is a rainbow over a running brooke. ~_^ Yeah....sorry but that sounds more like pretty-factor than protection!

The second layer...is supposedly...*skeptical glance* a combination of all the elements and stuff into one shield that rests just above his skin.

Uhm....*raises hand* Let's stop right there.

You can't combine all the elements and have a stable, solid shield. PARTICULARLY, when you're a complete novice and have no real training or ability. (But he tells me that the shield made itself. *blink*) For one thing: You're putting too many volitile and OPPOSING elements into one stew.

Too much and too many and it boils over.

Oh, you can use Spirit--which is all of the elements and yet none of them. But that's different and it's not something Blue could do.

It's just...ugh.

And he thinks he's seen the Lady. Apparently, he was walking around the woods near his house--where the "things" are that keep "attacking his house" and that he "crushes" with his energy--and a "lady in white" was sitting on a tree stump. Supposedly, she was attacked by the "things" and she used "otherworldly power beyond mortals" to destroy the "things."

.....

Is anyone else going: "Uhm...rewind?"

Seriously, I am so fucking tired of this. I can't smack him and tell him to get back to Reality-Land, can't tell him that he's not powerful enough for some of this, that he needs to just FUCKING BACK OFF.

Why not?

Because he's my friend and I'm terrified of what he'd do.

Not that he'd hurt me. I've got Ronan, and thick-ass shields. I've had shields since I was...hell, practically since I was born, but they don't keep me protected from outside emotions and my own abilities.

They don't keep me from needing to feed--although my locks did lessen the hunger before they unlocked. hungrier than ever these days...accidentally feeding off of Sid and maybe Ceri, I think. I know I've fed off of Sid--she gave it willinginly, thank gods. But I'm not at all sure about Ceri....it's something I don't want to speculate about right now.

*sigh*

I'm sure I had more to say...more to rant about...more to purge...but all I can think about right now is going to bed, calling up a fire-shield around my bed and curling up in my head with Ronan.

I swear I'm not nutso, y'all.

I just believe in things most don't. *shrugs* Don't believe, or can't handle...leave.

Very simple, eh? =)

~Mireyah